I feel like some one very close to me has died. That is the only way to describe how I am feeling. I have never felt more lost and shattered in my life. I know that in the end I will be okay, but right now I feel hopeless and broken. So broken. My relationship of 5 and 1/2 years just ended. The love of my life is no longer a part of my life. It makes me sick to say that. It feels unreal. I feel numb. I feel like I am dreaming. It's such a horrible dream that I wish I could wake up from, but unfortunately it is reality.
The only thing that helps through this whole thing is this:
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit" Psalm 34:18
I have to keep repeating it to myself.
God loves me. God wants me to be happy.
