define the relationship....

Pink hands, pink hair....oh and an Ali full of sass.

Vlogging rants are healthy in small doses :)

retreating

Eh.

Bleh.

Blah.

Wahhh.

That. Is. How. I. Feel. Today.

I seriously think I need to take a few days and just retreat from anything and everything.

I am never the type to need "me" time, but I am thinking that it would be beneficial for me mentally, emotionally, and probably beneficial for the people around me.

Lately I have felt like I get stressed out wayyyy too easily and I am NOT a fan of stress.

It makes me feel even more restless than I already am at night.

I don't sleep well (not that I sleep well in general).

It takes a huge toll on my body.

My neck and shoulders get extremely tight and full of tension, I lose my appetite, I have a constant knot in my stomach or lump in my throat, I legitimately lose my voice because of how uptight I feel...pretty much my body takes a huge hit when I feel stressed.

And honestly, I haven't felt stressed out like this for a while now and I feel as if it's taking away from me being able to simply enjoy the life I have been blessed with and the new opportunities that are coming my way.

It's draining me of my happy-self.

I reminds me of my past and how I would let simple little things get to me and stress me out, and it would cause rifts in my relationships with those closest to me.

It made me negative towards people and things.

It made me extremely unhappy and I in no way ever want to go back to that.

With that being said, today I came to the realization that I need to simply retreat, refocus, and disconnect for a day or two...possibly three.

I need to disconnect from everything...

family

people

the internet

my phone

and pour my focus into God and His word.

I need to re-charge in a way.

I feel like I have been going, going, going for the past few months and not really taking any time to truly decompress and make sure I feel balanced...and now with a lot of the stressful situations that probably aren't as big of a deal as I feel that they are, are making me feel even more stressed out than they probably would if I was rested and balanced.

 So only good and a "well-balanced happy Ali" can come from my little retreat.

Let's pray I truly follow thru with my little "retreat."

 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

- Philippians 4:6-7

vlogging while tired....no bueno

I have decided I probably shouldn't be allowed to vlog when I am tired...but oh well...YOLO right?

**By the way YOLO = You Only Live Once

I know I'm super kewlll.

dating...eh

So...lately I've been thinking a lot about dating and how terrible I am at it...so instead of "blogging" about it I decided to vlog.

Feedback and/or comments/stories are welcome.

 

Hope all you lovelies had a wonderful Monday.

Insults & Unicorn Pegasus

Oh hey!

Hey there...

How are you?

You good?

You okay?

Alright, awesome.

So I have had an interesting Thursday so far, and it isn't even over yet.

This morning I was insulted by a complete stranger all before noon.

I went to Starbucks to meet a client, as I was walking in I held the door for a lady walking in behind me. (I may not be a boy but I still hold doors for people...I was raised right haha)

Anyway I went and ordered my coffee and as I got my coffee and went over to the bar area to mix up my drink, the same lady I held the door for was there as well.  She randomly looked at me and started talking to me about how hard it is to find a job and to find a place that is hiring, so I started discussing the current economy with her and how jobs are hard to find now a days and that what is unfortunate is some people who are blessed with having a job aren't that thankful for it and instead complain a lot about their job, when in reality I personally believe..and this is just my opinion...that they should be thankful regardless how horrible their job is at times. (end tangent)

Anyway this then prompted the lady to start complaining about her "evil" supervisor...yes she called her "evil."  Then she dropped a few f-bombs in her sentences, which threw me off a bit because of her age I figured she would be a little bit more tactful...but nope. Any who, as she was talking about her supervisor she for some reason felt the need to describe what she looked like to me...and as she was doing so she said this, "Now she's a big girl...a little bit bigger than you...but her face isn't as 'broke' as yours..."

I literally started laughing and just sat there trying to take in what was just stated to me...."her face isn't as 'broke' as yours....."
WOW!
 I honestly didn't know what to say so I simply just laughed and slowly made my exit as another lady had walked up and started asking her what she was talking about.

SO...I'd call that an eventful morning.  I figure I'm good on insults for the day...so please hold them off until tomorrow, I need some time to get my face fixed since it's "broke."

But for real...
People have no tact anymore.
I would never in a million years tell someone I knew...let alone a complete stranger that their face was "broke," aka: Oh hey by the way your ugly.

All I can do is laugh about it because I find the people of today so entertaining.

So, after receiving my sweet insults for the day I got to work and the first half of work I discussed Unicorns and Pegasus' with our computer guys cute little girl.  She asked me what kind of Unicorn Pegasus I'd like to be and what color I would be, what color horn I'd have, what color dress (because our unicorns wear dresses), and what color my wings would be (I said glitter).
 Seriously I love how innocent and creative children are.
Their worries are so minimal and their minds are just so creative.
 I actually went to lunch with my sister after telling this little girl what color Unicorn Pegasus I'd be and I looked at my sister and said, "Now I wish I was a Unicorn Pegasus."
(You know you're imaging what kind of Unicorn Pegasus you'd be now too.)

Children make you forget about your worries, your daily stresses, pretty much ADULT life...and I think that every one needs to escape like that for a bit.
To just simply forget about all the craziness of this world today and to simply just think about what kind of Unicorn Pegasus you would be.

It couldn't hurt right?
Nope.

But now I am putting aside what kind of Unicorn Pegasus I'd be and I am taking part of my lunch break to simply write this post.
I wish I had more time...well actually I wish I MADE more time to blog. 

I find it so relaxing and once I start typing everything just flows out of my little finger tips.

 Love love love it.

Well I shall be getting back to work, hopefully my Thursday continues to be filled with sweet fun thoughts of Unicorns and Pegasus' verses mean old woman insults.

Au Revoir<3