mind-FULL

Ever feel like you have so much on your mind that it makes you feel literally exhausted?

Unable to keep your eyes open.

Short of breath.

As if someone knocked the air out of you.

That sums up my day today.

I went to bed exhausted last night and woke up even more exhausted than I was yesterday.

I don't think my mind and thoughts took a break while I slept.

I woke up feeling stressed out.

Pit in my stomach.

Short of breath.

Not particularly how I wanted to start off my Monday.

Thing is none of it faded as the day went on. It increasingly got worse and worse.

To the point where when I got home I was just simply over the day.

I just wanted to erase today and move on to tomorrow.

I hate feeling like that.

I don't like feeling like I want to erase any day that I have.
I want to enjoy every single day I am blessed with, no matter the difficulties it brings sometimes.

But today I just felt completely OVER it.

When I got home, I felt like I wanted to do something to keep myself busy, because let's be honest I am always constantly doing something or going some where (just ask my family), and yet today I didn't have anything to do when I got off work.

I should have been thankful right?

But I wasn't at first. 

I felt like I was missing out on something.

So I looked for things to do...

- laundry

- cleaning my room

- checked my phone to see if I had any appointments that I didn't remember.

But, there was nothing in my calendar for tonight.

After I finished my laundry and cleaning I laid on my bed trying to think of something to do.

I grabbed my phone and decided to finish my reading for my small group.

After I finished my reading, it left me some what more relaxed than I had felt earlier.

I sat back and thought about the scripture I had read, and then I reflected on my day and all the worries and stresses that I let completely steal my day away from me.

I felt silly for allowing my past hurts and scars to creep in to today.

My life today is nothing like it was a year ago.

The people in my life, are nothing like the people from my past.

Today I am surrounded by friends and family who love me more than I could ever ask for.

I've been blessed with an amazing best friend who I can vent to about anything and everything and she brings me back down to Earth when I get all worked up over stresses or worries.

I've been blessed with a wonderful man who is so passionate for God and gives every part of himself to serve God and people.
He is so genuine and caring towards me, and I am constantly thanking God for bringing him into my life.

Looking back on all those positive notes about where I am today, makes me thankful that I had nothing going on tonight.
If I hadn't had that 'quiet' time to sit back and reflect on the good things in my life I would probably still feel overwhelmed and upset over today.

That 'quiet' time changed my perspective on today, because in reality today wasn't bad.
 I just simply let my worries and stresses steal away my day.

Thinking about all of the blessings in my life that I have to be thankful for helps bring me back down to Earth and out of the mindset of letting my worries/stresses overwhelm me.
I now feel as if I can breathe again.

The pit in my stomach is no longer there.

The tightness in my chest from the stress has loosened.

Sometimes when things get crazy, when your mind feels so full of junk and stress to the point that you feel overwhelmed, you just have to take a minute, sit down and take a deep breath in and focus on all the good in your life.

Don't let all the worries and stresses and negatives take over your day.

No day is worth wishing you could erase it.

Trust me, at the end of the day you'll wish you wouldn't have allowed your day to be wasted.

Thankfully for me, I still have 2 hours left of today to focus on all the good.